Dear friends, family, lovers and all quadrupeds:
This is my first blog. I sit here with a beer in my hand while the lamp on the table reflects my thoughts like a sunrise in my peripheral. Kate Bush is playing in the background. You get the mood.
I have a boyfriend. It seems like such an odd thing to say. This implies that there's a love interest in my life in which we merely play about and show each other the best of each that there is to be seen and then see what happens. Not so in this case. He has seen my worst; I have laid my soul to bare many a time.
I also have step-daughters. This is also strange for me. For many years I have not been looked at as a parenting figure and yet here I am. There are two lovely, energetic...there are so many words to describe them and yet I can't come up with one right now. I never knew what I was missing until they came into my life. It's like an ember that burns deep within my heart with love.
I have somehow come to intertwine my life with all these loved ones that surround me. I have been a creature of stagnancy and non-change for a lot of years until this all happened. I worked too much, always thinking that the harder I worked, the more I wouldn't worry about money. It occurred to me that life is just that, life. Money will come and go but there are also things like love, friends, relationships and comraderie which becomes sacrificed in the name of currency. I'm still trying to wrap my head around this concept but it comes easier everyday.
I don't know if I came gracefully into this change; I highly doubt it. I am not the most graceful or tactful human being out there and I do hope that it hasn't spilled out onto the people around me. The most important thing for my loved ones to know is that I love them. There will be plenty of trial and tribulation in all our lives without having to come home at the end of the day and feel discomfited.
That's all I want to write about for my first blog, the energy that had been fueling me is dissipated now and The Tea Party calls.
