So I've had all these thoughts spinning around in my head for a long time that I should have written down or at least not try to shove them out. Either way, they're all gone now and I am left with remnants of emotion instead.
I have tried to be focused more on me and the people around me as opposed to the outside world (work). I have found that the calmer and happier everything is at home, everything else seems to fall into place naturally. It has been hard and emotionally draining at times but the ongoing result is less fighting, more understanding and a sort of harmonious balance.
This process isn't done yet, not by a long shot. Hearts have been broken and mended and sometimes the very nature of all of our relationships has been tossed into a proverbial blender. For the most part, I prefer to sit back and observe because interpreting is always helpful unless the interpretation is wrong in which case I am up shit creek without a paddle.
I am ending this now until I have a little more time to write and don't have to go to work right after.
To everyone out there who cares enough, I would send you all good energies but unfortunately for the time being, I have to save them for myself.
